REFRESH

i recently turned 30 (july 4th) and have been thinking more than i usually do. it was SO much that took place leading up to my birthday that just made me consider getting all new friends and leaving everybody else behind. why? let's just say if a person smiles in your face and cheers you on but secretly does everything in their power to sabotage what you have going for you, that's not a real friend. but you turn around and call me your bestie. not to mention you talk about me to people that you met THROUGH me and you expect them not to say anything about it to me? of course everything was denied. i feel like if you have to keep saying "you know me! you know i wouldn't say something like that!" yelling at the top of your lungs, 9 times out of 10 you actually said that shit. c'mon son! i am truly a nice person that wears her heart on her sleeve, but i'm not gullible. and of course after all the drama, the guilty person has yet to call me. which is fine because i don't have shit to say to her. she's always doped up on some type of meds and sleeping her fuckin life away anyways so we don't have anything to talk about. my focus is ME.. always has been always will be. i'm not one to put up with anybody's bullshit. my circle is tight-knit and the people in it are riders that care about me and let me shine and vice-versa... just the way it should be. like i always say if you can't keep up, your ass will be left behind.